i dunno why but i feel betrayed. )=
i feel sad when i see them so bonded although
they just joined ncc )= our platoon are drifting
further and further like its going to break apart.
i cant wait till after CTs so that we can faster organise
platoon outing(actually,we have already organised).I want our whole
platoon to attend the outing,i desperately want us to bond more.a lot MORE.

KEEP BONDING,KEEP KEEP BONDING,alpha'08 we can do it!YES WE CAN.

But still,sometimes i doubted my own words.Sometimes,only sometimes,
i do not understand the platoon.stupid me,why am i so emotional?
Maybe because I'm listening to 'KISS THE RAIN'. That song never fails
to make me tear...

when can we become the bonded platoon i wish?
i promise I'm going to strive hard,try my very best
to improve the platoon bond.
Of course i need the whole platoon to cooperate.

Why am i thinking so much,Esther,please go and study.

i feel so betrayed,everything just back to normal.
i do not understand them.Why must they make me feel so
terrible,so useless.I want them back instead.i do not
want them.I'm not sure whether i will still be looking
forward to ..from now on.I wish i will be able to change
my mindset.Its just that I'm a person who needs a lot
of time to adapt to new things.I took one whole year
to accept my class.Its only this year that i made more
new friends in class.i love them a lot.they don't show
me faces or whatever.thank you,very much.
i suddenly lost hope and confidence no matter how many
times i tell myself i can do it,i can )= i want to talk to somebody,right now.

i guess i just have to force myself to sleep.Once again,i have no mood
to study.i feel so loser,i am perhaps. I sound like one anyway.
i hate it when i get emotional cuz i will sound like one loser.
I felt especially useless after i heard what the platoon said.I have decided
to shut my mouth up to prevent myself to sound so loser in front of them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAQIBAH!

i dunno why but i feel betrayed. )=
i feel sad when i see them so bonded although
they just joined ncc )= our platoon are drifting
further and further like its going to break apart.
i cant wait till after CTs so that we can faster organise
platoon outing(actually,we have already organised).I want our whole
platoon to attend the outing,i desperately want us to bond more.a lot MORE.

KEEP BONDING,KEEP KEEP BONDING,alpha'08 we can do it!YES WE CAN.

But still,sometimes i doubted my own words.Sometimes,only sometimes,
i do not understand the platoon.stupid me,why am i so emotional?
Maybe because I'm listening to 'KISS THE RAIN'. That song never fails
to make me tear...

when can we become the bonded platoon i wish?
i promise I'm going to strive hard,try my very best
to improve the platoon bond.
Of course i need the whole platoon to cooperate.

Why am i thinking so much,Esther,please go and study.

i feel so betrayed,everything just back to normal.
i do not understand them.Why must they make me feel so
terrible,so useless.I want them back instead.i do not
want them.I'm not sure whether i will still be looking
forward to ..from now on.I wish i will be able to change
my mindset.Its just that I'm a person who needs a lot
of time to adapt to new things.I took one whole year
to accept my class.Its only this year that i made more
new friends in class.i love them a lot.they don't show
me faces or whatever.thank you,very much.
i suddenly lost hope and confidence no matter how many
times i tell myself i can do it,i can )= i want to talk to somebody,right now.

i guess i just have to force myself to sleep.Once again,i have no mood
to study.i feel so loser,i am perhaps. I sound like one anyway.
i hate it when i get emotional cuz i will sound like one loser.
I felt especially useless after i heard what the platoon said.I have decided
to shut my mouth up to prevent myself to sound so loser in front of them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAQIBAH!