POP AFTER TOP,IT RHYMES(=

One moment i felt so happy,singing with raqibah after parade while walking
to the bubble tea shop, AAing even though we knew they were behind us.
Now come to think of it,we really AAed.

Just not,on the way back home,i felt do terrible. WHY DIDNT I CRIED?So
what if only one tear rolled down my cheeks?i thought i would cry terribly
like huda, jasmine,raykal,humaira or raqibah.i do not know why but i feel bad.
WHY DIDNT I CRY. At least if i have cried I would have felt much much better.
I betrayed myself,my heart. If i can cry at home when i think of them, why cant i
just now.Jasmine said its becuz its too big a shock for me.isiz true?I just couldnt
cry with them around.. I feel so silly always crying myself to sleep. .

13 05 09 I will remember this date forever. Its one of the best days in my whole life!
We kept having group hugs.We even did count by the together as a platoon, but
without hema,that funny girl )= in short,today is the most memorable and
unforgettable day for not me but Bravo 09 I cant imagine life without my beloved
platoon.i cant. Since my tears wont come out, i shall blog and blog as a way of venting
my anger,pouring out my feelings.I WANT TO CRY,
but i cant )=

I FELT SO HELPLESS,SEEING MY PLATOON MATES ALL CRYING EXCEPT FOR ME. I FELT
SO TERRIBLE. I KNOW I WILL MISS THEM A LOT, I KNOW I WILL CRY IN MY SLEEP
BUT WHY CANT I CRY THERE WITH MY PLATOON MATES. STUPID ME,STUPID TEARS.
HOW I HATE MYSELF.

thank you a lot.i got things that i wanted to say but because the whole time during HUGGING session
i was reflecting on why my tears wont come out and stuff, i did not know what to say,what thank all of
you for.You all have been my best specs EVER. I LOVE EACH AND SINGLE ONE OF YOU.i will miss you all,
especially you who changed me,for giving me a chance,for discovering my hidden potential.thank you(=

Until today,i realised how my platoon is so important to me,
not even my class or whatever.I love bravo 09 oh so much!OH,WE ARE PROMOTED(=
okay,i should stop nagging.I was so helpless and feeling so bad that instead of comforting
my platoon mates(on the verge of crying),i made them cry.oh,how clever i am.
why am i so insensitive, so un- emotional,its so unlike me. Even i cried last year. So why
cant i cry this year? WHY WHY WHY. i still cant find the answer

i know its boring but its this blog is only meant for ouring out my feelings, not
meant for reading.its tooo not-for reading blogs.
2009 is FAB, its the year i improve a lot.I WANT TO IMPROVE somemore,
MORE AND MORE. oh you know i always type what i feel at the momment and
usually i blog when i am very very emotional so yup.
i wont stay emo for long,yup

I LOVE YOU OH SO MUCH BRAVO 09(=
can i accomplish my goal?

POP AFTER TOP,IT RHYMES(=

One moment i felt so happy,singing with raqibah after parade while walking
to the bubble tea shop, AAing even though we knew they were behind us.
Now come to think of it,we really AAed.

Just not,on the way back home,i felt do terrible. WHY DIDNT I CRIED?So
what if only one tear rolled down my cheeks?i thought i would cry terribly
like huda, jasmine,raykal,humaira or raqibah.i do not know why but i feel bad.
WHY DIDNT I CRY. At least if i have cried I would have felt much much better.
I betrayed myself,my heart. If i can cry at home when i think of them, why cant i
just now.Jasmine said its becuz its too big a shock for me.isiz true?I just couldnt
cry with them around.. I feel so silly always crying myself to sleep. .

13 05 09 I will remember this date forever. Its one of the best days in my whole life!
We kept having group hugs.We even did count by the together as a platoon, but
without hema,that funny girl )= in short,today is the most memorable and
unforgettable day for not me but Bravo 09 I cant imagine life without my beloved
platoon.i cant. Since my tears wont come out, i shall blog and blog as a way of venting
my anger,pouring out my feelings.I WANT TO CRY,
but i cant )=

I FELT SO HELPLESS,SEEING MY PLATOON MATES ALL CRYING EXCEPT FOR ME. I FELT
SO TERRIBLE. I KNOW I WILL MISS THEM A LOT, I KNOW I WILL CRY IN MY SLEEP
BUT WHY CANT I CRY THERE WITH MY PLATOON MATES. STUPID ME,STUPID TEARS.
HOW I HATE MYSELF.

thank you a lot.i got things that i wanted to say but because the whole time during HUGGING session
i was reflecting on why my tears wont come out and stuff, i did not know what to say,what thank all of
you for.You all have been my best specs EVER. I LOVE EACH AND SINGLE ONE OF YOU.i will miss you all,
especially you who changed me,for giving me a chance,for discovering my hidden potential.thank you(=

Until today,i realised how my platoon is so important to me,
not even my class or whatever.I love bravo 09 oh so much!OH,WE ARE PROMOTED(=
okay,i should stop nagging.I was so helpless and feeling so bad that instead of comforting
my platoon mates(on the verge of crying),i made them cry.oh,how clever i am.
why am i so insensitive, so un- emotional,its so unlike me. Even i cried last year. So why
cant i cry this year? WHY WHY WHY. i still cant find the answer

i know its boring but its this blog is only meant for ouring out my feelings, not
meant for reading.its tooo not-for reading blogs.
2009 is FAB, its the year i improve a lot.I WANT TO IMPROVE somemore,
MORE AND MORE. oh you know i always type what i feel at the momment and
usually i blog when i am very very emotional so yup.
i wont stay emo for long,yup

I LOVE YOU OH SO MUCH BRAVO 09(=
can i accomplish my goal?