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2009-05-26T21:09:00.003+08:00

All my documents disappeared. ALL. I was so traumatised.
Its like I switched on my com and wow. All of documents vanished!
So depressed. Why must this happen when I'm so excited for tmr
Bravo-going-bonkers. Its like so many people can make it. First time.

2009-05-24T23:31:00.004+08:00

HONG GIL DONG <333

CROWN PRINCE!

I just realised that there is still school tmr. I thought school holidays
have started. Well, at least until now. Luckily there was no school work
other than stupid projects. Oh, how i hate them.

hong gil dong is going to end. 6 more episodes which means 3 more Saturdays!
argh )= I love him and her! They are like so perfect although they did not end up
as a couple in the show. Age gap,i get it. Everyone was like why didn't the crown prince
end with my Lilu(female main lead)?

Okay, back to reading this fab book.

2009-05-24T20:33:00.002+08:00

I look boyish,weird and ugly with fringe. Guess I have to clip
it up )= But at least my hair is much shorter now.

2009-05-23T09:54:00.003+08:00

OH shit. I forgot to check the maths o board abt when to
report for the SMO competition. I dont even know the dates.
I really regret joining Maths O, paying $100 just to go there
and listen to the teacher who drones on and on. Almost the whole
class will be ignoring him, talking among ourselves because lessons
are so boring. I slept (really) through the entire period and he
didn't even care.blurgh. I cant wait for the Maths O to end. I hate
missing maths lessons in class cuz Mrs chia continues teaching.

IFC TEST. we can do it!

2009-05-22T19:07:00.002+08:00

My stomach is still hurting like dkghslf. Its so painful. Thank you raq,
atikah and aish for accompanying me in the sick bay before going for ifc
mock test. Thx aish and faad for waiting for me to change into house tee
and to go up to flos together with me. It was very last min. Actually I didn't
want to go for IFC mock test cuz the pain was unbearable but after that it
got better so i decided to go.Cuz true friends wait for you.Although the rest
didn't wait for me even though i told them to, they still bothered to ask me
how my stomach was. Thx.

Lets hope i get well by tomorrow morning. Charmaine didn't bring back
her boots )= Get well soon!

I still dunno whether I'm having cramps, stomachache, stomach infection
or what.

2009-05-21T20:07:00.002+08:00

Think i got to sleep at 1am today,or should i say
tomorrow. very annoyed and irritated. I went to charmaine
house,trying to dowmload the photoshop thing.. After trying
for 4 whole hours,still cant.waste my time only. blurgh....

stupid photoshop,stupid art.

2009-05-21T14:40:00.005+08:00

Today was blurgh. Cross country. Last year was better. Firstly,i was late for
cross country. reached at 7.45am. Reason? long story but i had myself to
blame, and Charmaine(= The competitive runners have alr reached the starting
point by the time i reached.Luckily Rachel followed me to ask a teacher where
the starting point was.Along the way,asked the npcc people for directions to
starting point.Thx sanika and shiling (= thank you specs for cheering me on when
i was so panicky as i was late for the run.But, thank goodness, i got to the starting
point on time.I sprinted all the way there. By the time i reached i was sweating
like mad. And i felt tired too. I was like what happen to my stamina as i already felt
so tired even though i have just started running. Then worse, my heel starting
hurting again. I injured it since Tuesday,not yet recovered. And wow, i got stitches
at the last part of the run when i was suppose to sprint.Thus i didn't really sprint. I
just increased my speed a little and felt so angry with myself when people starting
taking over me again.I felt so demoralised when everybody started to take over me.

But so what. At least i tried my best and finished the run. So three cheers to me (=
No use getting upset over cross country. Next year i want to do car park duty.
Or maybe not. Wanted to take pic with specs though only got 15 ppl.But some were
like dun wan, no full strength dun want. Some were like its okay,just make do with
the mumber. By the time we debated whether to take pic, everyone started leaving.
So, all of us got moody and did not want to take pics anymore. blurgh

After cross country, only 6 of us went far east plaza. far east plaza is the worst shopping
mall i have ever been to. We were so indecisive. Wanted to go suntec, east point, vivo
and bugis. But since there was a direct and expensive($1.95) bus trip to fast east plaza
via expressway, we decided to go there.First time Jasmine came with us.(=

I was so gundu taking bus 5, following the rest, thinking that it goes to tam interchange.
I was so shocked when dee said it does not. Haha, but in the end it came to this bus stop
where i change to bus 65 and went home. Thx dee for your help.

Back to reality. hw,projects...

2009-05-20T21:35:00.003+08:00

Cross country tomorrow.Running for class.blurgh...
i dun like being part of the competitive run. Its so
competitive?

i felt so stupid planning what to eat in the morning
so that i wont get stitch while running. Its going to be
the end for me if i got stitch.So i went down to buy packet
Milo and chocolate to boost my energy for tomorrow's run.
Hahah, but i have already finish eating the chocolate i just bought.
*guilty So now i shall rely fully on my packet Milo for the run!

After that,i got to go for music project which means no going
out with platoon )=

i hate art,i hate projects...

2009-05-18T19:04:00.002+08:00

Initially, i thought i would fail my maths and science tests.But instead,
it turned out that i did quite well for both.I'm pleased with my science
result,it was very unexpected. My maths,at least i still obtained a A1
although i deproved by 7 marks as compared to ct 1. now whats left is
my lit and history. My Chinese,i got C5 overall, with all the compo marks
added in...blurgh but i think my common test 2 will be able to pull my marks
up.B4 i hope. pls let me get at least a B4. i aiming for As and Bs only.

now back to private peaceful pack )=

2009-05-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

I feeling very pissed right now. With my music project which is due on
Tuesday, not done, because my group couldn't find a single day to meet up.
We were suppose to have a conference call tonight but nobody bothered to
reply when i tried to contact them. The stupid Chinese compo which is so hard
to do, private peaceful pack which is not completed and my irritating sister whom
I always argue with, refusing to let me use the laptop. We wont compromise each
other. She is a very demanding plus annoying sister.
Immature.

2009-05-16T20:25:00.006+08:00

EVERYTHING IS OVER.
cts are over,so here i am slacking. i have not even started on my school work.
Here i am talking to bodoh humaira.Her level of understanding is so low.
She takes so long just to understand the difference between my chinese and english
name. haha..talking to her makes me laugh.

HOW TO DESCRIBE HUMAIRA?

-bodoh
-annoying
-bachin
-hilarious
-my beloved platoonmate

2009-05-15T20:00:00.003+08:00

ARGH...i forgot to bring back the art board. sunday got meeting.
tmr must rush back to sch in the morning to take.sigh..
At last charlene is following me. Sorry charlene but at least you
bother to follow me back to school(=

2009-05-15T19:15:00.007+08:00

Celest:
dun be sad, JIA YOU. Its okay,actually not but still.
whats done is done. What you can do now is to study even harder.
There is always room for improvement. Never think that you have
failed. You have done your best and there is no use sulking over your
results. I will always be there in a double when u are in trouble

For those who have also flunk their maths test, what i want to say that
its no use crying over split milk. Never give up, keep on trying and always
believe in yourself because you can do it!

2009-05-15T18:29:00.008+08:00

Chinese lessons are super boring.Every lessons, i will be holding my pen,pretending to
be reading my Chinese textbook but of course I'm not.I'm actually sleeping...
Chinese lessons are very slack, mdm goh is nice, she doesn't scold us when we talk
to our table partners.

today after sch with platoon mates was fun.Playing in the rain with Dee and Jas.
I'm having headache now though.

Sometimes i think i do not understand my platoon. Some of them just refuse to tell
everything.They only tell those whom they are close too. Is this even counted a platoon,
platoon mates?Aren't any single one of your platoon mates your platoon mates? Why cant
some people just do that. Instead whatever happened, they just approach that same
person and then best,ignore the rest. Its not a good feeling being keep in the dark,
nobody wanting to tell you anything instead just keeping their mouth shut and smile
smile. Whoever that person is,she is still your platoon mate, show her some respect,
there aren't suppose to have any secrets in the platoon in the first place. But nevertheless
there will always be secrets in platoon. But it seems that, people are just getting more and
more secretive, reluctant to share anything, everything. But anyway,if they do not want to
say, so be it.I respect their privacy or whatsoever.Anyway, i am not the only one who feels
this way. But your actions have already hurt one of your platoonmates. (not me)

However,I'm just so pleased with most of them. Lovable,willing to help, no secrets,
no signs of fakeness,Nothing. They are just so innocent,normal and simple. I love you all.
However,no matter what, nobody is perfect. Even i am selfish at times.
To err is human. There will be solutions to all problems. we will overcome all obstacles
and become stronger and closer. i love bravo 09, we rock!

All i can do is to pray, to bond the platoon more, improve the platoon. And to tell all of us
and myself, we can do it, we will.

will we fall after they are gone?

2009-05-13T20:16:00.004+08:00

FLUNKED MY SCIENCE TEST!!!

but so what,im still a rock star,i got my rock moves....

KAY,I GOING TO CATCH UP WITH MY BRITIAN GOT TALENTS YO!

2009-05-13T19:43:00.007+08:00

POP AFTER TOP,IT RHYMES(=

One moment i felt so happy,singing with raqibah after parade while walking
to the bubble tea shop, AAing even though we knew they were behind us.
Now come to think of it,we really AAed.

Just not,on the way back home,i felt do terrible. WHY DIDNT I CRIED?So
what if only one tear rolled down my cheeks?i thought i would cry terribly
like huda, jasmine,raykal,humaira or raqibah.i do not know why but i feel bad.
WHY DIDNT I CRY. At least if i have cried I would have felt much much better.
I betrayed myself,my heart. If i can cry at home when i think of them, why cant i
just now.Jasmine said its becuz its too big a shock for me.isiz true?I just couldnt
cry with them around.. I feel so silly always crying myself to sleep. .

13 05 09 I will remember this date forever. Its one of the best days in my whole life!
We kept having group hugs.We even did count by the together as a platoon, but
without hema,that funny girl )= in short,today is the most memorable and
unforgettable day for not me but Bravo 09 I cant imagine life without my beloved
platoon.i cant. Since my tears wont come out, i shall blog and blog as a way of venting
my anger,pouring out my feelings.I WANT TO CRY,
but i cant )=

I FELT SO HELPLESS,SEEING MY PLATOON MATES ALL CRYING EXCEPT FOR ME. I FELT
SO TERRIBLE. I KNOW I WILL MISS THEM A LOT, I KNOW I WILL CRY IN MY SLEEP
BUT WHY CANT I CRY THERE WITH MY PLATOON MATES. STUPID ME,STUPID TEARS.
HOW I HATE MYSELF.

thank you a lot.i got things that i wanted to say but because the whole time during HUGGING session
i was reflecting on why my tears wont come out and stuff, i did not know what to say,what thank all of
you for.You all have been my best specs EVER. I LOVE EACH AND SINGLE ONE OF YOU.i will miss you all,
especially you who changed me,for giving me a chance,for discovering my hidden potential.thank you(=

Until today,i realised how my platoon is so important to me,
not even my class or whatever.I love bravo 09 oh so much!OH,WE ARE PROMOTED(=
okay,i should stop nagging.I was so helpless and feeling so bad that instead of comforting
my platoon mates(on the verge of crying),i made them cry.oh,how clever i am.
why am i so insensitive, so un- emotional,its so unlike me. Even i cried last year. So why
cant i cry this year? WHY WHY WHY. i still cant find the answer

i know its boring but its this blog is only meant for ouring out my feelings, not
meant for reading.its tooo not-for reading blogs.
2009 is FAB, its the year i improve a lot.I WANT TO IMPROVE somemore,
MORE AND MORE. oh you know i always type what i feel at the momment and
usually i blog when i am very very emotional so yup.
i wont stay emo for long,yup

I LOVE YOU OH SO MUCH BRAVO 09(=
can i accomplish my goal?

2009-05-08T18:06:00.002+08:00

=(

I do not care anymore.I'm just gonna focus on my 2 cts
and ignore my feelings,everything.i must get A1,must,must.

today maths lesson,was showing black face throughout.

I flunked my science pop quiz,nobody study for it anyway.

I stayed back with platoon today.feel closer to aishwaria and hema now,MUCH MUCH
dun want to comment anymore.

CAN SOMEONE NUMB MY FEELINGS?
I kept telling myself to give her a chance
will we be able to do it,overcome it?

2009-05-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

AGAIN!!!!

i have always wanted to watch the school nationals(cedar inside)
But i always missed it,realizing it only after a few hours!!!

I JUST MISSED IT AGAIN.and i just realized!

TWO MORE TESTS TO GO!!! I CAN DO IT!=D

today parade was ....
nothing interesting.
i want them back )=
i misss you all, a lot

HUUUDA is disguisting(i just realized.blurgh)

DEE is stupid,she thinks she know-it-all but in the end have to call my red cross
senior-friend.see her PAISEI face! you belong to ncc not red cross.

CHARMAINE is kept slapping my face. how many time ah!?

and lastly,
MARYAM GET WELL SOON!!!

my gum is hurting,i dunno why=0

2009-05-01T22:32:00.003+08:00

secret valentine by we the kings is nice.One whole day of mugging ends
up with only being able memorise PLANTATION AGRICULTURE.i prefer
sec one geo..Although Mrs Tan is interesting,i prefer Mrs Low )=
My sec one geo grades were much much better than this year's grade.
blurgh..i should be doing my gothic story,not blogging.So,ciao ciao =)

Thank you for talking with me jasmine yesterday night
when i almost broke down,you made me feel so much
better.i guess talking to someone who lends me a
listening ear made me feel so niceee. Arent i lucky
to have loving and understanding platoonmates?

2009-04-30T22:13:00.005+08:00

i dunno why but i feel betrayed. )=
i feel sad when i see them so bonded although
they just joined ncc )= our platoon are drifting
further and further like its going to break apart.
i cant wait till after CTs so that we can faster organise
platoon outing(actually,we have already organised).I want our whole
platoon to attend the outing,i desperately want us to bond more.a lot MORE.

KEEP BONDING,KEEP KEEP BONDING,alpha'08 we can do it!YES WE CAN.

But still,sometimes i doubted my own words.Sometimes,only sometimes,
i do not understand the platoon.stupid me,why am i so emotional?
Maybe because I'm listening to 'KISS THE RAIN'. That song never fails
to make me tear...

when can we become the bonded platoon i wish?
i promise I'm going to strive hard,try my very best
to improve the platoon bond.
Of course i need the whole platoon to cooperate.

Why am i thinking so much,Esther,please go and study.

i feel so betrayed,everything just back to normal.
i do not understand them.Why must they make me feel so
terrible,so useless.I want them back instead.i do not
want them.I'm not sure whether i will still be looking
forward to ..from now on.I wish i will be able to change
my mindset.Its just that I'm a person who needs a lot
of time to adapt to new things.I took one whole year
to accept my class.Its only this year that i made more
new friends in class.i love them a lot.they don't show
me faces or whatever.thank you,very much.
i suddenly lost hope and confidence no matter how many
times i tell myself i can do it,i can )= i want to talk to somebody,right now.

i guess i just have to force myself to sleep.Once again,i have no mood
to study.i feel so loser,i am perhaps. I sound like one anyway.
i hate it when i get emotional cuz i will sound like one loser.
I felt especially useless after i heard what the platoon said.I have decided
to shut my mouth up to prevent myself to sound so loser in front of them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAQIBAH!

2009-04-30T19:47:00.004+08:00

i cant help but laugh my heart out today.
Yurda was teaching us the peel banana dance today
and all of us were were roaring with laughter.
i got addicted to the dance now,all because of yurda

i passed my Chinese test!miracle!i cant believe
i pass both my Chinese tests this year when i actually
failed both my Chinese tests last year.I WAS SO DELIGHTED.
From 17marks ,i got 20 marks out of 30 marls.its bad larh but to me,
i improved a lot.thanks to ziqi who help me achieve 3 more marks.i wasn't
paying attention to what mdm goh was saying about double checking that
particular section as she may have marked wrongly.When 3 or 4 people
were going to mdm goh to add marks.I was like 'I'm so dead...everybody
is getting extremely high marks other than my pathetic 17 marks.
When i was sulking away thinking when will i ever achieve at least a B3 for Chinese,
out of a sudden, ziqi was like,'Esther,Esther!Go tell mdm goh you can get 20!'
i was like really really,why why?When mdm goh changed my marks to 20,
i was like 20!20!I DID IT!B3B3B3!But,on seconds thoughts,my marks are
nothing worth to be proud of.ziqi got 27 out of 30.the highest in
class.My smart new table partner.

When i went for ILEAD meeting,i feel so extra because when miss Liza asked us to
write our positions and names down,everybody but me were like PC or class com.
I was the only AV rep,not a class com or whatever.i felt so loser but pearlyn
comforted me and said 'who cares?at least you bother to take over wenqi
(my class monitress)and attend meetings with me when you actually don't need to.
You think there will be discrimination uh,like pelly D?

being sad doesn't change anything,
being angry doesn't help at all
being discouraged doesn't improve things
so why not SMILE and tell yourself
YOU CAN do it.YOU WILL do it.YOU MUST do it.

There is no use crying over split milk.
If you make any mistakes,
learn and improve from them.
For any mistakes are a learning point.

Every failure is a step closer to success,
Tell yourself you will improve and improve.
For the moment you tell yourself you cannot do it,
You are already a failure.

Nobody is perfect,
even the most perfect person you can think of
will make mistakes in their life.
As we are not God.

2009-04-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

im still feeling very shitty.
im going to pour out all my feelings to someone tmr.
i musnt let me emotions take control of me.
cheer up,cheer up,just sleep and everything gonna be alright
okay,i will just sleep even with my hair not blown dry.
its not going to help by just staring into thin air,
thinking about that when i know i have no mood to study
and it wont make me feel any better.

everything gonna be alright
just close your eyes tight
the next thing you know,
when you wake up in the morning,
everything will be alright again.

2009-04-29T22:01:00.005+08:00

=(

i know i ought to be happy,happy because of...
But,i dunno why,i just feel sad,depressed,i dunno how to describe
but i know its not a happy or whatever.

however,after parade,all of us were grinning ear to ear. We have improved,
our bangings,our drills. However,there is still always room for improvement.
i guess i still cant adapt to parade without them.
i was feeling so emotional when jasmine asked me to save
my tears for POP.when have i become so emotional?
i felt so terrible during interaction that i just want to stone
and sulk throughout.But,its very unlike me uh and i do not wish
to show my sad face in front of everyone.why aren't i feeling any better.

TERRIBLE )=

But i guess i will get use to this types of parades.I WILL,I MUST,I CAN
move on,move on.

okay,sorry,i do not want to bottle up my feelings and get dunno what disease
in future,its bad you know.

OKAY,I WILL GET OVER IT.yes i can!whatever it is,i still got my platoonmates
whom i can cry with,whom i can share my problems with.why am i getting so emotional?
its so unlike me. )= i shouldn't be here...common tests,i hate them )=

I CAN DO IT!this was what i told myself through the parade although
my standard during the start of parade was sucky.But,I'm glad we improve
as a platoon.i am very satisfied with our performance.

whatever the mind of a man
can conceive
and believe
it can be acheive

just tell yourself you can do it,and believe me,you will.

PS: everything is back to normal =(

2009-04-28T23:43:00.004+08:00

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SCHOOL WORK IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.
maths which is one of my strongest subject.but now,I'm struggling not
to lag behind in class.its always unfair because Mrs Chia always carry on
teaching new stuff during maths'o and i will be like what did Mrs Chia
teach today then they will be like,OH,she taught this this that that.

SCIENCE,i dun like lab experiments.'thank you' pooja and sanika for saying
my name out loud uh. Mr Leng uh.

Since I'm lagging behind so much,i decide to focus on Geo.but my laptop is seriously
getting on my nerves.Everything loads so slow.

TOMORROW WILL BE DIFFERENT,TMR )=

i want to rewind the time,
rewind back to the start of the year.
i hate year 2008,it is the year when everything goes wrong.
i love year 2009,however it seems like everything is ending.
they are leaving,its always like that.
this is what happens every year,yes i know.
but its depressing and saddening.
life is always that unfair.
will our bond ever improve?

2009-04-26T19:43:00.016+08:00

hm...i always see poems in blogs haha,I'm not a good poet though so nope,no poems for me.they are too secretive.Furthermore,i have poor inferring skills. okay,I'm watching star awards now.cant study,i cant say no to the distraction.EEYER.oh,i just bugged aishwaria for stories again (what stories?FIND OUR YOURSELF).

Kay,i totally forgot I'm part of AV CREW too.(feeling guilty)You know,when i first joined AV,i remembered that i was forced(skip the details).I was like: AV uh.nerdy,lame CLUB only.But i make many new friends like shiling and melody and i have learnt a lot of new skills.I got a free ticket to cedar musical, given the privilege to watch rehearsals and got a free cedar musical tee=D AV is very important.Anything also come and find us,anything wrong also scold us.(I have been scolded for countless times)Without AV,no morning assembly, no announcements can be made,practically nothing!

I just scan through my phone to see my files and gosh!i didn't know i got humaira sec one photos(she looked babyish) and jasmine(when she looks like a nerd and when she still have long hair.)

This morning i went church.During class,i realised that gossiping is wrong.
(although i thought its a interesting thing.)According to aunty pauline,
(sunday sch teacher) ITS A SIN.I Will walk away next time i hear gossips,
YES I WILL.have been skipping church too much.
SHOULD I GO FOR YOUTH CAMP IN MELAKA?

After church,i went for kovan where i met Charlene for tuition.Then when i come home, i slept.GOSH.i better start mugging.i practically wasted my whole weekend.

SOME PICS:

(after fdc =D)

(before sec2 meet the parents)

(at singapore post.when? sometime this year)
with dee,faadhilah and hema.this is the only glam pic.=D

HAHAH.sec one humaira

sec one huda

the old jasmine with long hair and everything

2009-04-25T13:34:00.010+08:00

heheh..three posts in one day.Time passes by fast.Soon,the sec fours this year
will be gone.(dreaded most)I will be promoted.(I CANT WAIT.but i hate it.)

Although i dont like my class.There are some classmates whom i cherish so
much.People like celest,charlene,pooja,yingyi,sanika.These are the people
who do not ignore me,who understands my platoonmates are very important
to me,who wont leave me out,who accepts the way i am.Not like some,who
always sticks to their clique.Well,i admit i have a clique in class too,but ours
is a small clique. And we have different people who join our group.Like sanika
who isint my clique.You know,i find that i can communicate well with those
people in uniformed groups.Perhaps its because they understand why i love my
platoonmates so much,why im so commited to ncc.(its cuz of my platoon and...)

And if you join NCC,there is only one disadvantage. Its that you have to choose
between your classmates and platoonmates.It is very very hard to be close to your
classmates and platoonmates at the same time.Well, for me i can only manage to
be close to a few,not like my classmates who are so close to their class.

I know its very long minded but this place is for me to shout out all my feelings.
you can dont read if you do not want.

Its suppose to be private anyway,just that im too lazy to private it.

And really,i think i might offend people if i continue writing how i feel so
pls pls dun tell others other than the people whom i linked abt my blog.

PS:i miss my fab table partner YINGYI,the retard )= WELL,at least now she sits
in front of me,but still..)= and celest choo choo train who makes me ending up
exploding with laugher.HAIX...life is not the same anymore.HAHA.

2009-04-25T12:54:00.007+08:00

Aishwaria and hema are so funny.HAHAH. especially after seeing aishwaria's
face when you bugged her for JUICY stories.Atikah and i were laughing like
a bunch of fools,listening to hema's crazy laughter and aishwaria's annoyed
expression.HAHAHAH,you should hang out with them if you are feeling low.
Sorry faadhilah and huda of having to accompany me all the way to loyang,
in the end only to be furtile.ESP faadhilah who lives so far away from loyang.
HOWEVER,thank you for accompanying me.Not like the three who break their
promise to go for the free cone thing.tsktsk.=D Alpha'08,i love you all!

PS:never ask dee for help in deciding your URLS.

i hate art and geo. GEO is so hard to comprehend and art is too time-consuming
and cuz i have no artistic talents i really have to use all my brain power(do i even have?)
to think of just one picture to draw.

And i am so stupid,i do not even know that raqibah have a LJ until today when i needed to link her!HAHA.=D

2009-04-25T12:38:00.004+08:00

yesterday,i went to yishun library with dee and raykal.Thank you raykal for telling
me how you feel about our platoon..I didnt realise..so many.didnt manage to study yesterday though, i cant concentrate on my studies in library especially with platoonmates.heheh.

HOWEVER...
our platoon bond is like not improving(maybe a bit,ONLY).its very depressing you
know, after i talk i had with dee and raykal.I feel so helpless.its like no matter how
much we tried, nothing works eventually.i wished alpha'08 can be as bonded as specs.
But,we have 22 people, what do you expect?In each platoon,there will be people who
will feel left out.Stupid clique. i will mix with all people from now on instead of
sticking with the same people.And really, mix around.Some of you all always stick
together.(sorry,but its a fact.)

i miss you.the you whom i was once closest to.the one whom i always confide in.
But now, you got your own clique in class.We have different opinions. Now,when
i talk to you, you give me a cold shoulder,We started arguing,a lot. I know you
have already gave up on our platoon, i know.Im not going to comment anymore. However,our platoon really misses the you who was once so annoying and talkative.

ps:pls dun link me unless i tell you to.